Who are we really? I feel like everyone must ask that question at some point in their life. I remember thinking, “I think I’m losing myself”, over and over again. It would be like a nightmare where I kept looking in the mirror, or doing different activities and every time it’s like a little piece of me kept chipping away. I still have trouble with it sometimes but I feel like I’ve gotten to the bottom of it for the most part. For me, there are two problems. The firsts is I am often looking at the past to find out who I am now. And that’s just not going to work anymore. We are always changing, hopefully, and to base yourself on who you are now to the person you were back then is honestly a waste of time. One day though I was thinking of the past and how much better I was. A better wife, a better figure, a better friend, then all of a sudden, I got the thought that, my present life is not a failure. I had been comparing myself TO myself for so long that I created a bad and a good version of me so of course I ended up hating my present self and idolizing my past, which also isn’t good. In conclusion, it’s ok to change; its ok to feel strange. But know that you are not a failure for not being your 20-year-old self or your 30-year-old self etc.… Time changes all of us, but it’s what we do with the change we are given that really governs how our life goes. Even if it’s so hard we have to ask for help.
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