I'm having a hard time. Some days are good, but others days seem really hard to make it through. I feel like I'm losing it again sometimes. I've started sitting at my bedroom window waiting for a car to pass, thinking its going to pull into my driveway to do God knows what. I don't want anyone to feel afraid or worried about my safety because I am completely safe but I have just been feeling very down the last couple of days. I'm not who I was. That is something that is just eating me up inside. I don't look the same, I don't feel the same. I keep thinking, "just get up, just move on." But the depression won't go away and I can't seem to remove this fog out of my head. I have the tools I just need to use them but it's like I have no energy to even do that. It takes all my energy to smile and be excited and interact with others that the rest feels exhausting. I'm not looking for sympathy or for you to get overly concerned (mom and dad ;) ) I'm just going through a rough patch.
Love you all, Hailey
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